Laziness and (hair) loss

My hair is thinning out, I’ve found hairs all over the place and now I can see my once thick head of hair is sadly flat looking. My part now extends past my crown and it freaked me out when I saw this in a store mirror. I’m eating more protein and hoping I can nip this thing in the bud. My doctor warned me about it but I never thought it would happen and it has. Darn.

I am a lazy person, I don’t like to have to work too hard. I have been known to, on rare occasions but usually grudgingly and against my will. Which is why I have not been training as I should for the half marathon. It’s in three days and I should be more scared than I am. The fear will probably kick in around 6am Sunday morning.

On one hand I believe I can walk that bad boy but it will take me a long, long time. I hope to run part of it but frankly slackers can’t be choosy and just finishing will be my goal. Even if I am pulling in after everybody has gone home, though I hope not. It is my own darned fault, I can blame my location, work schedule, the separation, the weather and several other things if I want. I miss my old training path at the big lake near my old apartment and I have thought about going there to walk and see how well I do jogging. But it is some distance and very close to my old place, I know I won’t run into my husband but the proximity is a little overbearing. I have gone to the gym nearby and used the treadmills. Treadmills are great but deceptive, they make you feel like your’e a badass, racking up those miles easily, without hardly feeling any resistance. They don’t and can’t duplicate outdoor walking/jogging. There’s no wind resistance, no walkers or runners to navigate around, there’s no uneven ground, no extreme weather conditions. You are on a machine in an air conditioned room with a TV in front of you, for goodness sake. There’s even a place for your phone, mp3 player and a beverage. That’s not available when you are on a real course. You can stop anytime you like, on either treadmill or on foot but that’s about the only similarity. There are a few things I do like about the treadmill: it keeps my speed consistent and lets me know how far I’ve gone, have to yet to go and how many calories I’ve burned.  I appreciate the treadmill since  it’s about the only option I currently have but frankly it makes me feel like a wuss.

Yoga has been the only exercise I’ve been getting in, mostly because I’ve paid for the classes and I feel so good after. Even lazy as I am I can get myself dressed, I bought some new yoga pants and that’s motivation as well. Not the expensive kind, these are from Target.  I’m gaining flexibility but worry that might not be good for my jogging. Runners, I’ve been told, “real” runners have tight muscles and little flexibility. I hope I can have both, yoga is good for aerobic conditioning, it’s all about breathing, and there’s some strength training involved. I’m hoping that it helps me on Sunday, if nothing else being flexible helps prevent injuries.

After yoga I plan to hot the treadmill tonight. I feel better, my body is warmed up and there’s nothing good on TV anyway. If there was I might just come home. Wings and Stars both play tonight but neither one is on TV. I can follow both using the apps on my phone. Both teams should win but you never know. Then they play each other on Saturday but I’ll be at a banquet for my son. I’ll have to keep my phone on silent so the end of periods and goals don’t go off in the middle of dinner or worse, someone”s speech.

Sunday update

I took some clothes to Our Sister’s Closet and felt better getting rid of clothes that are beginning to feel baggy. I also bought some new wind pants in a smaller size  for working out  so I don’r have to keep hiking them up in yoga class or on the treadmill.  I am glad to say I did the half handstand again last week, it was easier and I stayed up longer this time.

I haven’t weighed myself in nearly 2 weeks because I moved out of the apartment. I’m living alone now, across town in my own apartment. It’s been a long time coming and my husband and I are separated. I’ve told my family and co-workers but still haven’t told our son. He’s living in another country and I’m trying to get the courage to tell him, I don’t want to do it by email or texting and skype doesn’t always work.

I am still trying to do the same things and keep my routines but I haven’t walked as much since I’m not near the lake anymore and have only the gym treadmills to rely on. There is a park not far but it’s small and I’d have to circle it 3 times to do one mile. I still plan to do the half marathon, it is exactly 2 weeks from today.


I went to my doctor for my last appointment before he moves his practice out of state. I told him and the nurses I’m sticking with him, even if it means a 5 hr drive. He’s good and he and his staff are worth the effort. I also stocked up on protein bars. He said I was doing well, even now I’m still ahead of schedule on my weight loss even though I’m at a plateau now. I’m still 40-43 pounds down, which is good he reminded me. I have about 20 pounds left to go and he encouraged me, saying increasing my activity level is good but to eat more and eat more protein. Some of his patients stop eating or restrict their food intake when they hit a plateau and their bodies go into starvation mode and they can’t understand why they aren’t losing.  Also they begin to lose their hair and come to him confused and panicked  So eat, and for once I have no trouble following doctor’s orders. He did say the last 20 or so pounds are the hardest, the lower you go and closer you get to goal the harder and slower it gets, but hang in there.   He said my labs looked good even though my A1C is on the high end of normal. He’s not prescribing anything for it because the Byetta made my blood sugar drop and gave me the shakes til I ate some bread and peanut butter. I go back in July, they should be happily settled in their new offices by then.

I’ve moved and it means going to a new gym. It’s part of the chain I joined at Christmas and visited 3 times, but the layout is different and the treadmills are different too.  I found the trainer/dude on duty who showed me how to get started and did an hour while watching but not hearing Mob Wives.

I pushed myself a little more and it felt good. Partly because I was finished but the oxygen was flowing and I was sweating like a pig but it felt great. I went to yoga last night and that probably helped as well. Any movement, exercise makes me feel better, sleep better and makes the next workout less strenuous. I felt so good I thought to myself “Heck, I’m doing this tomorrow.” Then I saw the sign on the counter, they are closed tomorrow for training. So I plan to walk  outdoors, I’m going to the medieval fair, an annual tradition here then later walk at the park. The half marathon is in 3 weeks and I do believe I can do this thing but it will be hard. Probably the hardest thing I’ve done but I intend to do it, to finish the race even if it’s hours after everyone else has finished.

I have another more immediate challenge ahead of me. I’m going to Wal-Mart, because it appears I do not own a phillips screwdriver after all.